Today is my due date and so far nothing is happening! I can’t really say that I am surprised but so many people had told me that they felt this baby was going to come early that I started to believe it (or at least hope for it!). I have had several phone calls and texts over the last few days saying “well……….?” and every time I phone my Mum she panics and jumps into action mode!
I am feeling quite prepared now for our new arrival and I am determined that this time around I will be in control. After watching Channel 4′s One Born Every Minute on Wednesday, I was truly inspired by Charlotte (the midwife who gave birth to baby Rose). I just couldn’t believe how glamorous she looked whilst in labour! Her hair looked lovely and her make-up was flawless and that made me wonder how possible it is to look glam in labour. Don’t get me wrong, my first priority is getting the baby out safely and after my last labour experience I know things don’t always go to plan. But I can’t help thinking that it would be nice if this time I could look yummy and in control.
Maybe this does stem from the lack of control I felt during my last birth experience? I had planned a nice calm water birth and genuinely believed that after a very straightforward and uncomplicated pregnancy, then the labour would follow suit. Yes, I now know that I was quite naive, but anyhow that was not what happened. When we arrived at the hospital, I didn’t even mention the birthing pool – I was so preoccupied with just getting it over and done with. After 40 hours of contractions I reached the fully dilated stage and started pushing. And I pushed, and pushed and pushed (for 4 hours) before I was taken to theatre for an emergency caesarean. The combination of Lola’s back-to-back position and the cord being around her neck several times meant that she was stuck fast and no amount of pushing was moving her.
She was born at 2am and after I had been sewn back together I was taken to her, I fed her and then we fell asleep. We never even thought to take that first photo of us and it wasn’t until my family arrived later in the day that photos were even taken. I think this makes me even more determined that this time I WILL get that first mum and baby photograph. And if possible, it would be nice to look even a little bit okay in the picture!
I have been making a special effort for the last week to put on make-up every day. And I have even tried to delay taking my face off at night incase the labour was just about to start!!!